Wow, I can get sexual too: My Dirty Little Secret

So there's this guy I've had an on and off thing with since the begining of sophomore year. And he's kind of a douche as most on and off guys are, but there's a problem. And that problem would be his big brown eyes, and the fact that everytime I see him I want to have sex with him. I know this makes me sound like a slut, but I don't even really like him. I mean I care for him and his well-being but I don't feel romatically for him. He just makes me really horny. This sounds kind of dumb, but I think its because my fling with him is a bit more risque than usual. Like we do bad kid things together, and he makes me feel like a risktaker or a badass. And I know that makeing out with him in a band practice room does not make by any means make me a badass. But its the excitement of sneaking around, and being bad. It makes me feel like a cool kid, haha! It also bothers me that there's alot of songs that remind me of him such as the 2 mentioned in the title and many, many more. I sometimes want to tell him that these song make me thing of him, but then I'm like thats stupid.