Basket Case

I've been really lonely lately. I've also been trying to mask this with porn and an obsession with cats. I know this post is going to sound really whiny, and I don't care. I really don't like certain aspects of my self right now. I am just really obnoxious, and annoying and I feel like no body likes me because I am needy and desperate. I also have a hard time believing that I am attractive. I feel like I am just not the date-able type of person. I feel like people take advantage of me because I am vulnerable, and willing, and insecure. I would rather others be happy than myself, but I feel like my existence is what is making people unhappy right now. I feel like I'm going to be alone forever, because I am so afraid to try and get with someone new because I'm afraid of rejection and getting hurt. I just don't want to feel so alone anymore. bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehh// I don't mind being alone right now, I am just afraid that this will last forever. I just need to find someone whose willing to work through all my quirks and issues, but he probably does't exist. fuck.