Dear Future True Love~

Dear Future True Love,

I love you. Times are hard for me, and I just wish you could be here to hold me. Broken hearts hurt, but I know that someday they will lead me to you. Sometimes, when I'm feeling lonley, I'll think of you, and the fact that you are out there somewhere, exsisting right this seccond is comforting. I promise to never stop looking for you, as long as you never stop looking for me. Then one day, when the time is right, we'll find eachother. Until then, I will never give up hope. I will also continue to write you, because when I write to you I feel like you are closer than you may actually be(:

Love,
A heartbroken, tenth grade version of your True Love♥

The Only Blog I'll Post On The Subject [Hopefully]

SO I'm gonna try and make this not sound whiney or pathetic... It'll be hard, but I'm gonna try... And I'm gonna direct it toward someone... Not trying to be acusatory, just tryign to make it easier to explain my emotions.

Basically, I've come to the sudden realization that I've been where you are. I know and understand exactly what you're going through. I guess, it makes the situation easier to except... in someways. In others... its harder..

Mostly because I realize what I was to you... And it hurts... But I cant get mad... because someone was once that to me.. And to fully accept that I have to fully accept my past..which I have put off doing... So... I shall bring forth him. I haven't talked about him in a while because I'm not proud of what happened between me and him. You know more than I will explain here. But when it comes down to it... I never felt as passionatley with him as led him and myself to believe. I was just comfortable. And at the time I needed that. But... and this is the hardest part to accept... This would have to mean that I only went as far as I did with him because I was horny, and bored. Which was not true for you, and it may not be true for me. Its just a theory that I have, and it may not be true in your case, but from what I've heard from you its a definant posibility.

Other than that it is easy for me to understand and accept what you're going through. I'm not gonna lie, I still have a hard time, but I'm slowly healing... but I know you are healed, and I don't blame you, cus I've been there before. It's always easier to get over someone you broke up with, than someone who broke up with you. I miss it, and I miss you, and I still get jelous... but someday I'll end up back in your spot. Its just the circle of life and I just need time.. Sometimes I just feel like I have to work alot harder to maintain our friendship than you... but it'll be worth it in the long run.

ttfn
Kate

Believing

Last night I experienced something so simple, yet so profound. Earlier I was talking to my friend about how I wished people thought of me as free spirit. We continued discuss how it seemed as though I was a free spirit on the inside, but there was something keeping me back. Possibly insecurities. Last night was amazing. What happened? I was free. Me and Brittany, Mark, and Ryan all went to the woodlands. In a moment of spontaneity, and despite our skirts and hair... we swam in a public fountain. It was one of the most amazing moment of my life. For once, I was free. I was magic. I was pure, and innocent. I was profound and beautiful. I was the free spirit I want to be. There's been allot of things holding me back lately, and the biggest one is me. I just need to let go. I need to not worry. I need to not let my insecurities, and fears keep me from flying. I need to focus on the present, and not on the past or future. I need to focus on my self, in a non-selfish manor. I need to believe. I believe in magic. I believe in miracles. I believe in fate. I believe in beauty. I believe in unicorns. I believe in peace. I believe in freedom. I believe in myself. Nothings here to hold me back any longer. I need to be free. What happened to me in the fountain was magic. I can never re-do or re-create that moment. Its all forward from here. I am Free.