Less than atrractive

I am going to start this off alittle ugly, because some times life is ugly. I am 5'3", 15 years old, and 205 lbs. People say I don't look it, but its the undenyable truth. I am on the verge of diabetes, and I'm very unhealthy. I am scared. I don't really think about it alot, but I am. I have to change eating habits, before food becomes the death of me, litterally. I'm currently working clearign the junk out of my life and growing to my full potential. I just recently cleaned the cess-pitt that was my bed room. I need to lose weight, and I need to get healthy again. I need to stop burryign my problems for later.

My friend, Brittany, wants me to start going to church with her and I want to go, but I'm not sure if I'm ready to rededicate my self to christianity. I haven't talked to God in months and I'm hesitant to come to him and talk to him as well as face all my sin and confusion. I talked about my religous beliefs yesterday, but they are really in trully shakey and underdeveloped. They also change daily. I am just not sure if I am ready to come to God.

On the bright side my last blog sparked a long and deap comnversation with Ryan :D, I'm so glad he's not one of those guys thats affraid to theorise and question, and well...THINK! We really conected on a deaper level and that makes me really happy(: He understands me, and thats what I like about him. We also talked about prom, which got me super excited(: I reeally hope we stay together so that we can go to both of our proms(: Another reason I want to lose weight is so I can fit into my perfrect dress(:

That's all I have to say for now. I really need to catch up on some homework. Oh! I almost forgot, I talked to my mom about being homeschool and she said that it's a joke and I wouldn't learn anything :/ welp ttfn!

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