Just Breath

I woke up this morning feeling like this song. Idk, but i woke up and my window was open. The air outside was cool, but not to cold. The sky was blue and the birds were chirping. I finally just... breathed. The fresh air that was streaming through my window filled my loungs, and i realized how long it had been sence I just... breathed. I was forced to see and remember how beautiful life really is. I layed in bed for an hour and a half just marvelling at that moment. I realized how fast my life has been going, I mean not much, much has been going on, but I just never seemed to stop. I've been pushing and pushing my self to do and do, and I never realized how much I've been missing.

I also stopped and examed on my past alittle bit. Let's just say I've made alot of mistakes, and well I haven't exactly excepted them all. Some of them imparticular have been hidden within a grudge in the back of my mind. I have said "I love you," 4 times, and never actually ment it. I made my self believe that I ment it though. One of these times ended up in me going alittle futher in a relationship than, now, I would've hoped. Neither of us were ready and I think I knew deap down inside that I never loved him. I wanted to love him, because he made me feel safe and adored. Something no one had ever made me feel before. But we had no passion, or understanding. I was his world, but he wasn't mine. I regret everything, and I can't seem to let it go. And I realize just now that I can never truly enjoy life until, I can be rid of my regrets. Hopefully this will be the start of letting go of my regrets.

Today is a day to focus on my self. Bother inner and outter. I will attempted to fix the pieces of my self that I have left broken because the edges are sharp. I will also be treating my self to a spa day and turning all contact to the outside world off. Time will not exsist, and in the end I will ask my parents to get me a veggie burger from fudruckers.

ttfn
♥kate

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