SO I'm gonna try and make this not sound whiney or pathetic... It'll be hard, but I'm gonna try... And I'm gonna direct it toward someone... Not trying to be acusatory, just tryign to make it easier to explain my emotions.
Basically, I've come to the sudden realization that I've been where you are. I know and understand exactly what you're going through. I guess, it makes the situation easier to except... in someways. In others... its harder..
Mostly because I realize what I was to you... And it hurts... But I cant get mad... because someone was once that to me.. And to fully accept that I have to fully accept my past..which I have put off doing... So... I shall bring forth him. I haven't talked about him in a while because I'm not proud of what happened between me and him. You know more than I will explain here. But when it comes down to it... I never felt as passionatley with him as led him and myself to believe. I was just comfortable. And at the time I needed that. But... and this is the hardest part to accept... This would have to mean that I only went as far as I did with him because I was horny, and bored. Which was not true for you, and it may not be true for me. Its just a theory that I have, and it may not be true in your case, but from what I've heard from you its a definant posibility.
Other than that it is easy for me to understand and accept what you're going through. I'm not gonna lie, I still have a hard time, but I'm slowly healing... but I know you are healed, and I don't blame you, cus I've been there before. It's always easier to get over someone you broke up with, than someone who broke up with you. I miss it, and I miss you, and I still get jelous... but someday I'll end up back in your spot. Its just the circle of life and I just need time.. Sometimes I just feel like I have to work alot harder to maintain our friendship than you... but it'll be worth it in the long run.
ttfn
Kate
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